So today I went to see my GP, it's been a long time since I've seen my GP, as I always find doctors visits's unhelpful, and just make me feel worse.
However I've been in severe pain along with chronic fatigue, ever since I had my surgery in January.
And I don't think it's normal for me to be suffering this way.
So I sucked it up and booked an appointment.
I'd been threating about it all week, and didn't end up sleeping at all last night, due to anxiety, so my body's really paying for it today.
Anyway as usual I found the session pretty unhelpful and was just made to feel crazy.
My doctor basically told me how most people can handle their endo pain and it's just because of the fact I was abused and my mental illness's that I am unable to cope with it!
And my doc specialises in gynocology!
I just don't feel like this is the case sure my psychological issues will make things more difficult for me, but I don't think that's the route of the problem.
Thousands of other women suffer with endo and are bed bound and I don't think that's because of mental illness, that's because of the severe pain and chronic fatigue endometriosis causes.
I feel really let down that she didn't really check other things too, and just passed everything off as psychological because it's the easy way out.
I don't think it's psychological that I suffer with chronic diarohea that stops me from being able to leave the house because I will poop my pants!
I know this is probably part of the endo or that I have ibs too.
But my digestive issues have never properly been checked out it could be chrons or ulcerative colitis for all they know.
And they didn't even bother to check my bloods since I am chronically fatigued and I am in recovery from bulimia, I think it's a good idea to check those.
I just feel so disregarded, my GP has now referred me for therapy but it will probably take months, but I am not really expecting much from it since I've seen a lot of therapists and nothing has really helped, because heck therapists can't cure chronic pain!
I really hope therapy will help and do feel I need it due to all the abuse I faced as a child, but finding a good therapist is extremely hard especially on the nhs!
Sorry for the long rant post, just really needed to vent!
I will hopefully be back with more positive posts soon!
Have a great day!